The Fault in My Fears

“My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations.” ― John GreenThe Fault in Our Stars

First off let me say this is NOT a review of the movie or book.  I won't mention the story that John Green wrote, but only something that clouded my mind while watching the movie recently.

I have some time on my hands since I've been working as a relief teacher and I've watched this movie quite a few times.  And it still gets me crying, every time.  Although it was mainly due to the story shared onscreen, it also was my own fears clouding my mind.

While watching this movie, I realized that my life has been a bit "lucky" compared to others.  One thing I'm trying to let go is that of my fears that something might happen.  I can't begin to write down the things I worry about daily or thoughts that grow in my fears.  For a while there I somewhat lived my life being afraid of actual life.

Since about 2013 I've really tried to push myself past those fears and start really experiencing all that I can out of life.  I've always been grateful for the life that I was given, but it's now about putting that life to good use.  (So to speak.)

Not only has my Lifetime To-Do List encouraged me to experience more, I have people that push me to do things and let go of the fears.  Although this book left me (initially) with a terrible pain, I'm now left with even more inspiration and drive to keep living life to the fullest.

“Sometimes, you read a book and it fills you with this weird evangelical zeal, and you become convinced that the shattered world will never be put back together unless and until all living humans read the book.” 


  1. i love how certain books can inspire things somewhat unrelated. i think i should read this book if it has given you such a perspective. i too have felt very lucky and i try not to take things for granted! and when bad things do happen, i always try to remember that in the grand scheme of things, it is small because there is so much good. xo

    1. You haven't read it yet? Don't watch the movie, book first (if you can).

      I wasn't going to read it because my friend is a high school teacher and she said all her students were pissed about the book. (But after reading it, I kind of get it.) But it personally inspired me to keep on my path of trying to get all that I can in life, quit being afraid. It was a nice quick read for me too. :)